Two years forward Of life

Two Years ago..
I am thought can get a new girlfriend so fast.
That time i am really did not use brain.
Until in the end,I am failed.


Two Years later still single alone.
Since after 3 years broke up with my second ex girlfriend...i am really feel doing better a lot.
People whatever are wanted to critic me or else go avoid me because racism culture problem.
No matter what I am,
I am Chinese.
But now,i am becoming christian.
No more was a like a Chinese culture people anymore.
Reason is,People are not recognize me as chinese people!!
I am very disappointed and feel heart pain about the matter.
I am really no idea How is happen.
Smoke?
Yes,I am smoking.
I am smoking when i was 16 years old after breaking heart love with first ex girlfriend.
Now...?
recently less smoking.
This is during longer time already alone without having girlfriend.
Love life failed twice.
Three years passed.....
No hope for me if my dream girl reject me once again.
Then i can give up.
I am serious.
I am really lazy to talk to many web friends despite they are not remember,forgetten me.
I am just keeping quiet.
When i am speaking up,get criticed.
What for i am go free speaking up then?!
Useless people,selfish people are not 100% trusted.
It is true.
Seriously,i am the fucking caught in the middle guy when people are shout fighting each other.
Both of them are asking me fucking rubbish question.
"Do You support me or support him/her?"
This fucking rubbish question,making me furious on them.
This time,I am never be a caught in the middle guy anymore because i am changed.
I am not gonna help,support who is shout fighting with another people.
That is easy,That's All.
Stop fucking asking me to be a caught in the middle guy anymore.
I am hate that!!