The Real Truth Of Me.

This is me.
Myself.
My Name is Ivan Sam.
Full Name is Ivan Sam Teng Xhiang.
Born In Ipoh,Perak.
Currently Based in Banting,Selangor.
It is located around after klang,Teluk Panglima Garang and Sungai Jarom
You Can call it Jenjarom.
So..
Where am I Begin?


Ah.
Let See...
Begin..begin..begin.
Beginning about after i was born to this world.
I was the baby of that time of year 1987.
So,other else are born in that year.
First..my mum and my dad caring me a lot much.
Then until my grandmother caring me a lot.
My elder brother does not care about me.

This is real beginning..
Anyway..Since my exist in this world..getting great birthday.
Yes.
It s great birthday.
That was memories until after year 1998.
I was 11 years old.
So...After year 1998,nobody celebrates my birthday anymore until now year 2010.
I am 23 years old right now.
Another else,because somebody wants to remember my birthday every years to come.
That's secret.
Apologize.


Before...
I am having three previous girlfriend.

The Year Of 2002.
The First one,i meet her in cyber cafe at Ipoh garden east.
Firstly she is shy and then she is not shy anymore to talk to me.
So...been dating her three times.
I am thought myself already feel high and happy.
but suddenly the happen is,short love life terrible that imagined.
She ask her friend to told me that she wants to break up with me..
I am just very frighten and upset.
Keep and keep asking the reason WHY word.
She never tell me.
That time i was 16 years old.
=.=
And have to wait 4 years to get a new girlfriend.

Year 2006,
got having new girlfriend.
The Second One.
age is bigger than me one year.
I am firstly thought she is good girl..but however,i was wrong about her.
She is forcing me to make a sex love with her without wearing condom.
So..i am reject her few times then no longer to stay contact with her because already break up.

Forward To The Year Of 2007.
The Third One,through friendster knows.
Dating so many times.
Well...that time she was 16 years old and i was 20 years old.
We are already love,care each other very much everytime.
But unfortunately,more worst..
again short love life more terrible that imagine more,more and more much.
Her Mother object her and me love together.
Her mother thinks that i am look horrible.
But i am not.
Already tell the truth...In the end...sadness come in.
Still the same.
I have no choice that time.
Asking her to listen to her mum's advice with my good heart.
However,she never listen to me even scold me like fucking dog.
I am very upset and wanna cry in the night after full recover from being sicked.
The Next day,i am send the text message to her stop calling me darling and lots of word to make her regret.
Then i am leaving ipoh for heading to working in Genting Highlands...
Three weeks later..i am heading to ipoh because can't stand about the management of the chinese canteen.
I am coming back then working back in cyber cafe again.
So...i am thought myself can renew my life again but however..the night...somebody send the fucking text message to scold me twice time.
I am firstly very very scare until i am fully power and respond the text message with angrily to him and i am knew my second ex girlfriend was the main.
Finally...i am scold both of them with fully energy mad angry.
I am feel better and my female colleague said that i am changed.
Truth is,i am changed.


So totally is 3 times having..but different years for having one only.
Forwarding to now.
The Year Of 2010.
I am single alone and hopeless to any city girls anymore.
I am really serious this time.
Three previous girlfriend in my life..
Now,i am really don't know.
Nobody want me.
Nobody give me a chance anymore.

Friends?
Same.
All Gone and disappearing.
I am been contacting them before many times.
But They never repsond me even not recognize me.
It seems i have end friendship with them.
I am never want to forgive them anymore.

They are because like money life a lot.
take a drink need pay selves.
FUCK!
I am really HATE THEM.
I am not like the type of them.
So..

I hope any people understand why i have no chance anymore and it is too late to get a new girlfriend.


However..This is the real truth experience.


~Ivan Sam~
16/09/2010(Thrusday)
11.09P.M.