Smoking many years...never tell to gangster members that i am actually reject their proposal.

Smoking.
Yes.
I Am.
From Age 0f 14 Years old...my mum give me to try.
Then when reach 16 years old...started smoking after heart broken love with 1st ex lover and even own classmate give me cigarette to smoke.
So...Smoking Daily.
But not dare to smoke 2 to 3 packs before lung will be more hard cancer disease.
Until I am experience many years..
recently still smoking.
Just Recently started less smoke.
Reason is I am feel alone and lonely.
But every month,i am only bought  two pack of cigarette to smoke for one time.
Not week,Not Day anymore.
I am wanted to stop smoking.
Hate smoking already.
Lazy to smoke.
so...now..despite alone freedom..
I am do the right thing is correct.
If Not...I am already again become gangster member in banting.
I am very afraid myself will be having none of future life one day.
It Is True.
So...i am actually reject their proposal but never tell them at all.
If I am tell,they will simply beat me.
Now Recently...a lot of cases about student being forced to join gangster...he reject then get beaten by gangster members.
What are Gangster Members DOING?!
Very Fucking disgusting way doing.
Beat People for what?!
They are really fucking disgusting Insane and mad crazy people.
They are can't be rescued anymore.
Let The god punish them into sitting in JAIL.
The God Knows that i am doing the right thing way.