-Myself and Present life-

3 Years Passed after heart broken love with my second ex girlfriend.
Still alone lonely single at all.
Did not having own girlfriend.
Really.It is true.
But One day will.
I am changed a lot of myself.
Look at myself in front of mirror...becoming another person.
Not look like last time of a fool,stupid person anymore.
Girls did not wanted me,because they are think that  i am look like a mature growing up person.
They are not accept the fact that i am look like a mature already.
It is Okay and nevermind.
I am not minded if situation like this from 3 years until now present.
I am not afraid on something anymore.I am just do my best on my own.
There is no reason to care about another people are not caring about me anymore especially own real actual life of friends.
Is That so they are thinking?
They are wrong mistaken for losing the nice friend of me.
They are can't changed,example....still like that...or avoid,doesn't want and doesn't have to remember anymore.
They are fucking selfish,blame me for what?!Asshole of them.
No Reason to blame and protest for them because i am working in the far away place.
 Society World has changed,and become bad situation like fucking crazy life for everybody.
Damn.
I am not caring that anymore.Just be myself,be confident with myself.
Depending on own friends?!GO FUCK SHIT ASS Damn of them.This is very wasting own time,own energy,own life.
I am independent.What for i am scared?i am just miss my both parents very much.
People are not appriciate me,I have no choice.I am gonna fucking ignore them and not to talk to them anymore.I am just keep quiet better than caring about their matter.
So,everybody out there....Don't blame me.
Reason is You All are fuckin never listen my advice and even go scold me,asking me not to care about you all.You All are fucking doing the terrible hard mistaken desicion for given up on me!

~Ivan Sam~ =)
23.06.2010(Thrusday)1.10A.M.